Debt: My life

As if the job search wasn't depressing enough, I just had to make the semi-annual phone call to my student loan company to gravel for forebearance again. But this time, they told me that I had to pay a monthly payment in full (plus a huge processing fee) in order to qualify to keep the fucking loans out of sight, out of mind for another six months. I feel like i might vomit. I hate being poor.